2 years ago, on October 11th, 2015, I made the best decision of my life, and that was to follow my dreams.
HOW IT ALL STARTED 2 YEARS AGO
Makeup has always been a passion of mine, and deep down I knew I wanted to pursue that little dream of mine, I just didn’t know how. I had been pondering the thought of starting a YouTube channel for a while (you can see I originally made my channel on September 16th, 2012), but honestly I never had enough courage to post a video, nor did I know a single thing about videography/lighting etc…
But something was different when I woke up that fall morning in October, and I legitimately said screw it, I’m making a video today!!
So I took my little camera that my mom bought me when I was like 15 years old, and put it on top of a stacked pile of my college books (at least they had one good use, while I was in college), and pressed the little red record button. I had little knowledge of how to film, lighting, and only had a small bit of knowledge on editing from a film making class I took in high school.
That day I conquered a fear, well a couple actually… I proved to myself that I have the courage to put myself out there for the world to see regardless of what other people are going to think of me. I proved to myself that I have the knowledge to learn how to film, what lighting to use for makeup videos, how to edit etc. I proved to myself that following my dream was possible. All of these things that I proved to myself 2 years ago, I am still teaching myself to this day.
No, not every day do I feel confident in what I am pursuing, no not every day do I think I have enough skill to produce great content, no not every day do I think chasing my dream is possible, but that is the emotional roller coaster that comes with life/YouTube.
I couldn’t be happier that I decided to follow that tiny little dream that was hidden in my heart, because now it is one of my biggest passions, and hopefully one day I can make it into a full time career.
One of my favorites quotes that I try to live by is “Run towards fear.” If is scares you, chances are it’s worth doing. I was terrified to post my first video, but it was one of the best decisions I could have ever have made. So, if you can get anything out of this post, it’s to not let insecurities, people, or the world stop you from chasing your dreams, and what you truly love, because you only have ONE life to live, and sacrificing it for something or someone else is not worth it.
I want to thank everyone who has subscribed to my channel, and supported me since I started my YouTube journey 2 years ago, especially my family, and my boyfriend. Thank you to my brother and sister-in-law for supporting me and having watched every single video of mine with their dog, and my mom who loves to watch my videos on the tv in the living room, while I cringe from upstairs, because I hear my voice hahaha. But most importantly, my boyfriend Cash. Cash honestly was the person who encouraged me and really pushed me to follow my dream. He has supported me 100% since day one, and believes in me when no-one else has, including myself. Even on days, where I don’t believe in myself, he shuts it right down, and doesn’t even let that be an option.
2 years ago, I started with a Fall Makeup Tutorial, and now I have progressed into making beauty, fashion, travel, lifestyle, and fitness videos, and it all started on October 11th, 2015.